Life's A Hell? Yes? Or maybe Not? I hope.

At times I really wonder, why humans just couldn't forgive other's past?
Is it so hard to, even when I'm trying hard to change?
Or is it that you couldn't even try to give me a chance,
to prove to you that I could change, or even, I've changed.
When something happened, and it's surely going to be my fault.
Without finding out the truth behind it, fingers already start pointing.
Like I'm being pointed with a gun right at my head, with no mercy.
Do you even know how dreadful that feeling was?
I know that everything I've done, to you is an eyesore.
Everything that I've done, to you, is all wrong.
And I knew that, it's never going to be right.
No faith, no trust, no confidence. Where is it?
Why do I have to search for it, instead of you showing them?

- End (:

It's all about, only you.

I've been thinking quite alot about you.
Jolly well knowing that It's hard for us to know each other.
Or maybe not? I don't know, myself. What am I thinking?
It was extremely hard not to think about, you.
I stayed up late that night, just to wait for you to appear.
Even if it was just a glance within seconds right before I sleep,
I am ignorantly contented, ending my day with a smile.
Not on appearance, but yet, it was deep down inside, my soul.
I don't know why, but everything just kept my mind occupied, you.
I couldn't find any words, phrase nor sentence to describe how I felt.
Felt so speechless, trying hard to search for answers within myself.
How should I start it? Or maybe, I could just end it?
I felt no stress, but only worries. Why is that so? -Thinking real hard.
Deep down, my soul, what answers am I trying to find?

- It's for me to find out, BYE (: